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20.3.11
FIFTY. POST. KPOP KPOP KPOP. FTW.
suckers. <:
tvxq is awesome. as usual. mean, they were better with jaejoong and yoochun and junsu, but sometimes, really. Homin really really really exude the charm, like sexayyyyyeeeeee.
They had this suck up of crotch touching epic moments. I shall show you. ALL.
Therefore, viewer's discretion is advised. I warned you.
this made me go unfffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffff. i mean. CROTCH TOUCHING, EXCUSE ME. ;__;
my day at first made me like this:
then there came that scene, that sent me flailing around flapping my wings. and smiling.
then soon it had me going like this,
and i made so much noise, my brother came in the room and wanted to seee what was happening. when i showed him the whole thing, he went like. is it porn?
I IMMEDIATELY FLARED UP. AND SHOUTED. THIS IS MUCH BETTER THAN WHATEVER PORNCRAP THEY HAVE THERE. he stared at me like i was mad. and i stared back. i mean glared. GLARED BACK. MAUAHAAHA.
hi, you have to somehow. i mean, look. like. ya, i can't really do what you want me to fucking.do.every.single.time.ok.
and i walked away like a pro.
00:57
12.3.11
49. 49. 49. 49.
I haven't updated lately, and I have to be honest and say, alot of things have happened.
I learnt things, that being the immature girl I was last year, was never able to realise. I learnt how not to be so gullible, to have my own backbone. Don't get into relationships that make you happy in the start only. Freedom is more important than relationships and whatever crap.
I value freedom, relationships are tiring chores.
I don't expect him to see this, but really, I want him to know that no matter what happens, who he chooses, I'll still love him. I'll watch from the side and observe him; cry with him, laugh with him. If he kisses someone other than me, then I'll know that it'll be time for me to give up, and move on.
I hope fervently for this pain to cease.
I want them to understand that I do stuff not because I want to, but because I need to. When I laugh, it's because I want to lift up the mood. Just when it's a little too loud, a little too hard, you'll know that it's fake. When I cry, it's because I want to feel better. Just when it's a little too teary, a little too runny, you'll know that it's real.
People keep telling me to move on, but no, you still occupy that space.
It probably is really dumb for me to stay here and wait for nothing, maybe this little teeny bit of waiting will last for years. I don't expect them to stand by me forever, because, slowly, everyone will dissolve away slowly. There's nothing I can do about it if they don't want to be here with me.
That's why I said, the best is to stand alone, independently.
If anything sad happens, I'll know what to do to cheer myself up.
If anything happy happens, I'll know what to do to maintain that mood.
If nothing happens, I'll know what to do to make myself occupied at all costs.
I can just hope.
Hope that I'll be successful in waiting for you alone, standing for my rights.
I may not be from a rich family, I may not be the prettiest you can find, and my character may not be the best either; I admit them all.
You told me, "You're the one who makes me complete. "
You told me, "I fell in love with you, and only you."
You told me, "No, you don't have to change, I love you for who you are."
You called me Darling whenever we were together, I was happy, I was glad.
The world had collapsed around me once, and it will never happen again. Never, every again.
I'll be smart and follow my own views.
I won't care what they say, I am the one who leads this life, I am the one who scars this body, I am the one who will make decisions in who I'll entrust my last love into.
If I ever will find someone who will make me feel loved for who I am, and not run just because I'm not rich.
3 years, all over in a day.
1 year, all over in a minute.
That phone call, was the last.
The tears that fell, was the most.
The you whom I used to have, was history.
The me who was weak and vulnerable, is extinct.
A new Kimberly who no one sees, an emotional one, a cold one. Everything jumbled up together to form who I really am now. No fakes, nothing.
I thank you for all these lessons, you woke me up.
01:56
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