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KIMBERLYWEEREI.
Imma still 14 sucker; 20 Oct's teh DAYYYYYYYofNEKKIDness.
I love kpop. Sucker for hot guys, apparently.
Life has always been a huge roller coaster ride for me and now I'm really getting tired of it. I just wanna put everything down and let go.
Off, off and away, to eternity !
Biases.

I apparently HAVE to MAKE it fucking obvious for you suckers to see,
Who's mine. Who's not fucking yours.
First, there're JUNGYUNHO & PARKYOOCHUN of DONGBANGGGGGGGGGGSHINKI. Then, my KIMJONGWOONYESUNG-sshi of SUJU. Followed by L.JOE of TEEENTOP. Plus, C.A.P.
Ohmaigsun, that's not all, there're SOMEMORE.
I'm not sorry.
LEEJUNHO buttgod of TUPIEM. ( 2PM, that is, for some of you apple tards. ) AND. CHUNDOONG OF THUNDER. Cough, I mean MBLAQ.
Now, fuck off with the rest of the not-as-hot-as-them hottehs, tyvm. <:

Please don't go away.
16.11.10

the insecurity is really killing me inside, and out. up till now, i still have no idea what's like suddenly bugging me. this insecure thing is really making me lose tons of confidence and self-respect. like, shit, even my morale is starting to abandon me.
and now i keep feeling really cold for no reason at all. it's not like i'm sick or something. god, i feel so...
Vulnerable.
One light tap will make me lose my balance. One unkind word will make me lose the sanity. One sentence of criticism will make me feel like just ending everything.
i don't like to sleep at night, 'cause sleeping just makes time fly past so fast. and the next day there's bound to be despair once again.
how i wish time can just freeze like right now, so that the hopelessness will not go up another notch again.
i really feel that there is no use crying over spilled milk, i would rather cry over going-to-spill milk. despondence always looms ahead.
when i was young, i had always wanted to be a doctor.
but now, when i think about it, i found myself really tooo näive and childish. i can't even save my own life for god's sake, and i go around telling people that i want to save other peoples' life. more like ruining it, making them lose it.
people don't believe me, and there are people who protect me, no matter what i'll do. and they're all the same people. those people who made this life easier to bear, no matter how hard it may get. i really want to thank them, but i just feel that i don't deserve that kindness, i don't deserve the care.
everytime i keep telling myself that no, i'll be emotionless. so that my heart won't be toyed around so harshly and frequently, but it doesnt help. if i do that, i bottle up all my feelings inside, and... everything just becomes worse afterwards.
i keep thinking up of excuses to make myself feel better, and trick myself and people around me into thinking that being cheerful and happy is my real personality. even i was tricked into believing myself for a period of time. but there's always the time when the realization dawns upon me, that i'm just a meagre nobody who has lost interest in everything around her.
even up till now, i tell myself i wanna make my life happier, i wanna make this life worthwhile, but the inspiration doesn't come, thus the willpower and determination to do so gradually fades away too.  and that doesn't make me feel any better cause i know that if i continue being this way, nothing will ever go right on me. not in this lifetime. never. and i'm sure of it.
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